Filling the Need

Well, 4 fish, and one lizard later, I'm still feeling that desire for new life. I really want a new kitten or puppy for Christmas but we just can't afford it and frankly I don't want to clean up all the mess. But I still have that desire for new life. I've thought lately that once I turn 30 I'm just going to go on birth control or maybe use other forms to prevent me from ever getting pregnant because I think 30 is just too old (at least for myself) to have a baby, the baby would be at the minimum 7 years younger than Abbie, it would be like 2 families! I'm thinking maybe in the Spring we'll get a new puppy. I don't know. I just hate that feeling of emptiness and craving. Lizards and Fish DEFINITELY don't fill it. And either does chocolate. Darn it.