Backfire...

Well, I got the shot all ready and say there staring at the needle right next to my stomach, so I got up the nerve while waiting for Brad to do it myself. It hurt. I'm not as good at giving them to myself as Brad is at giving them to me. But I was so proud of myself, I walked down the stairs and told him, "You snooze, you lose." Turns out he wasn't happy I did it myself. He wanted to give them to me on the days that he's home at 9. I said, "Aren't you so proud of me?" He gave me a fake smile. I felt bad. I didn't realize he liked inflicting pain on me so much. No, for real though, I think he felt like he could help with these and I wasn't letting him do his job. Ooops. Well, lesson learned.

I only have 2 more days of Birth Control left, and 17 or so more days of shots. Then I'm totally done with the hard part. After the retrieval and transfer, I don't have to take any more shots :). I'm so happy about that.

Day 2 of Injections

I was going to play a trick on Brad today and when he gave me a shot pretend to freak out and scream and such... But I decided it was too early for that. It would probably knock all his shot giving confidence away... But I prepared the shot and cleaned my skin and pinched where I wanted and then he walked in and I gave him the shot and he stabbed me. It hurt more this time. He said its because of how I was pinching my skin. I think it's because he did it slower... Who knows. It really wasn't that bad though. Giving blood hurts 10x more than these shots.

I've been surprised a little bit with how relaxed and ready I am for all of this. I'm sure God is assisting me in feeling peace. I've been working extra hard at not allowing stress in my life. Saying No to extra projects, not trying to fit in so many things, etc. I've been reading books more, and that has helped a lot. I'm not sure if Brad is enjoying the laid back, relaxed, don't do anything stressful me. But he'll get what he can take. :) I'm trying to keep my house clean and not let it get overwhelming because that is a huge source of stress, when it gets super dirty.

I created a chart that shows how many days of the process, how many shots of each medicine, etc. that way each night I can check off a day. It's a nice way to feel like I'm making progress and getting closer to the end result.

Day 1 of Injections

Well, I did it. I got my first official shot. I will be honest, I wish I could say that I was tough and said something like "Just shoot me!" and let him do it right away... But for some reason I was a total wimp! I psyched myself out. I kept pushing his arm away and laughing at myself because I knew it didn't hurt that bad, but I think staring at the needle didn't help. So I looked away and it took him literally less than one second and I was done. And then I was reminded that they really don't hurt. I could barely tell he did it. But I will say the Lupron I took has a little sting to it after the fact.

So only 40 or so more shots... There are a lot of pills to take too and everything has a time, so I'll be attached to my phone and handy alarms I set out for the next 3 weeks :)

Here's to Charlie...