Where the Miracle Lies

I forgot to share a really cool story. I have been on this process of "finding my why" and I received a personal revelation that totally changed my paradigm. I've known for almost a year now that the real reason I'm not able to have more children is that the Lord has a different plan for me right now, I have some sort of task or "assignment" I need to complete right now that the Lord knows I couldn't if I was pregnant or had little ones. So in understanding that, and embracing that, the other night as I was saying a prayer, I had the thought... "Maybe the miracle I'm waiting for won't be in getting pregnant, maybe the miracle is that I haven't gotten pregnant in five years." And I know this is too personal, but I actually laughed out loud when I had this thought, coming from the Lord's point of view "And you haven't made it easy with the amount that you two make love." So my paradigm totally shifted when I realized that it is the Lord and his hand in what is happening in my life, and its a matter of trusting him, knowing that I really should be grateful that he's helping me become that person that he knows I need to become to have that ultimate happiness I'm looking for, and that I shouldn't see Brad or I as "broken", but that the Lord is working a miracle every month to prevent us from messing up the plan that he has for us. Pretty cool!