What a dooozy

Okay, so today was the first day of real shots. I can say real shots now because apparently the other shot I was taking each night doesn't even count as a "real" shot compared to the ones today. This morning I woke up and was like, "It's FRIDAY!" The day I've been waiting for, the day we get to the real good stuff... so Brad and I "discussed" the technique for putting together the first shot. You have to change needles and mix this liquid with this powder, etc etc., and what I remembered was different from the directions, so anyway, we finally figured it out. I iced up my stomach and looked away and Brad gave me the new shot and let's just say, I was surprised. And a little disappointed, that it wasn't as pain free as the other shot. It burned. I survived, and I didn't cry, but let's just say tomorrow morning I'm not looking forward to that one. You could see the lump of medication where you put it in, and you could watch it spread. It was a little gross. And I think the difference is that there is about 10x the medication as the other one, and also that the medication stings. Still, I will say it's not as bad as getting your blood taken, but it was close.

So today I think I was having hot flashes. Either that or all the sudden 74 degrees is sweat worthy weather? And I never sweat. It was really weird. Anyway, so then tonight I had to do two shots. The one I've been doing for the last 1 1/2 weeks, only half the dosage, and then this new one. It's totally complicated and intimidating, but I went through the directions step by step and totally conquered it, and said a prayer, and stabbed myself, and I didn't even feel it! Hooray! I'm so glad I was able to do it by myself and that it didn't hurt. What a blessing.  Anyway, so the last shot that there is that I haven't tried yet is the HCG Trigger Shot I take the day before the Retrieval, hopefully next weekend :). But I don't expect it to be that bad, and if it is, at least I won't know till it's too late and won't have to do it again!

We're going to do a day of prayer and fasting on Sunday if you'd like to join us, I'd be really grateful, and frankly quite honored. I've been a little overwhelmed with the kindness and love and support that everyone has given me. I think that a lot of people are quiet about doing In Vitro, for a number of reasons. Probably because if it doesn't work, they don't want everyone to know, and perhaps they don't want to have people judge them? I think times have changed a lot and people don't look down on fertility procedures anymore. I haven't heard anything negative about it except the cost and the pain... but I decided that I was going to just put it out there and not keep it a secret. The more people that are thinking good thoughts my way, the better my chances are :). So anyway, thank you for reading. Thank you for caring. Thank you for your prayers.  I'll update you on Monday with my appointment details if I don't update you again before that. Good night!